"If you love someone, tell them because hearts
are often broken by words left unspoken."
i don't know who write this quote but it makes me think of one prison and one person only i loved him off and on for years his name is john first time was in 2009 it was my second year in Canada and it was his first he didn't know that much English or that much things about relationships well we were kids kinda ,he wasn't the hottest guy , the strongest or the skinniest he didn't have swag or anything he was kinda weird but i liked him just they way he was but i didn't go for him because all my friends though he was ugly and everyone liked his hot brother i admit he was kinda hot and cool but i just didn't see him like i see john ,i didn't tell anyone that i liked him unit on day i told one of my friend Sadie i trust her and all but when i told her she laughed but she acted like she was happy for him i knew then that she wasn't, on day i was sitting in the park with my sister and he came to the park too and he came to me and we were talking and he told me that he liked and i was happy inside but i acted me i didn't and i didn't say anything. i all ways needed an excuse to talk to him so i always ask him to help me with my french homework because he spoke french on day he was helping me and he said if he helps me then i had to his girlfriend i told him no but he always tired that was what i loved about him i really liked when he put his arms around me some time i wish i never care what everyone else through about him i wish i want with my heart when everyone asked me why i was talking to him i told them that i was using him for my french homework i feel super bad sometime i wish i had a restart batten , one day my mom told me that she found a house she wants to move the end of the week i was kinda said because i didn't want to leave him i was kinda falling for him as crazy that is i was.few months after i moved i start talking to i him on Facebook and my sister did too and she asked him if he still liked me and he said that he did and she told me that i was happy but he kinda change he was still nice and sweet but he start dressing better and losing wright and all and one day he asked me if i came go swimming with him and i said yes but then i had to take my sisters with me all of them it was so embarrassing too and he had all his friends there and i didn't look that good and there was this other girl with me and his friends so i didn't go and talk to him because i was with little kids and didn't look that good i didn't want to embarrass him so i just want home but i really want to say hi and just jump on him and say long time or kiss him i don't know i just wanted to do something but no i just waked away like i didn't know who they were after that say we didn't talk for 2 years last time i saw him was at this place where we worked i was so happy when i saw him and when i did he got so much hotter ,cuter and his dimple stayed the same but he lost weight and all wow i really wanted to hug him really bad and on day he asked me if i had a boyfriend and if i needed on lol and i told him no and i don't need one i didn't want to sound desperate few days after that him and his friends and i were playing true and dare and he dared me to kiss him and i did a really quick pack and he said he didn't see it coming so i had to do it again so i didn't but this time i wanted to give him something to remember so a give him on of those sexy kiss he said i was a good kisser lol after that we made out a lot and i never wanted to stop but i was confused about what was going on were we together or not so i asked him if i can talk to him face to face about and he said yes we were supposed too meet up at this festive when i want there he was with this other girls and i saw him and i called him he told me he was waiting for his friends but that was just excuse he didn't want to talk because he didn't want to be seen with me that day i wanted to cry so badly because i never stop loving him, and on of this girl that i told everything too was to facing me i heard she even told him to play with me and i think she likes him and one day he told her to ask me if i can be friends with benefit with me when she told me that it broke my heart more he was just hurting me again and again none stop but what was heart braking too see is this nice sweet guy that knows how to treat a woman guy she turn in to a player i heard it is starting to play girls i wish i can tell him to stay the same but he wouldn't listen to me some times i just wanna say he stop this its not you ,you should be with me you know i will love you like no other i will take care of you i will be the woman you need let me love you but all i can do is watch him and when he needs me i will be there for him because action speaks louder then word
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